Come December, and it's funny how I find myself in a retrospective mood already. The log book for 2012 almost coming to an end. But I have accounts to be settled. So much to say, even though I know it wont get me any answers.
I didn't blog much this year. And most of it was anyway too sad for me to keep returning on my previous blog. So here is me. Trying to make a head start once again. Start out fresh. But not without settling a few scores with 2012.
Dear 2012,
You were mean. And harsh. You snatched away two of my people this year, none of whom deserved to leave so soon. I shall remember you for a lot of things, but mostly this. For being one of the cruelest years ever.
You were a teacher to me. And may I add, a very tough one at that. You ensured a lot of quick learning from me with very little scope for re-tests.
You were my reality check. I started 2012 with Bambi-like twinkle in my eyes [or may be it was just wanderlust from my Europe trip], but you grounded me back to reality. You crushed a few of my plans and a whole lot of dreams.
But having said that...
You brought me unexpected joys. Friends who showed up least expected. With warm food and warmer hearts. Rented apartments that soon became home. Laughter that brought tears and tears that I can now smile back on.
You taught me to love people. Irrespective of the vast differences we shared. You taught me to love my parents again. And see them in a whole different light. As people, not parents.
And finally, you showed me that a little self belief can really take me places. That I need to trust myself before anyone else. Love myself, more than anyone else. That words like - dream, hope and belief - don't just make good poetry. And that it's not selfish to watch out for oneself every once in a while.
You were such a weird year 2012. I can't look back fondly at you but I can't help thank you for the tough lessons and much growing up that I have experienced.
Looking forward to a very different 2013. I hope you shall oblige much.
Love,
Rutuja
Judge early, and judge harshly. There is always a palpable sense of relief when one finally manages to put something like this into words.
ReplyDeleteYou will manage very well dear :)...2013 will be an year you will have much to write about..and very nice things to write about :)
ReplyDelete@ Modular Form - Sometimes its simply about saying out aloud, something that you wanted to, but simply couldn't. Relief yes, peace..more so :)
ReplyDelete@ Funnybunny - Thanks...just typing Funnybunny [with all the double n's] is already making it better! Funny Bunny! :D
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