Thursday, June 16, 2011

Adhoore Khwaab...

choti aankhen dekhe bade khwaab
mushkil sawaalon ke mange jawaab
khwaab dekhne par na thi pabandi
ziddi mann chahe unka hona puri

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Missed Call

She wanted to look her best for him.
Kajal, silver bangles, bright orange kurti.

Decked as Indian summer she made her way to office,
Like autumn leaves, her face paled on knowing he had called in sick.

***

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Distracted.

It's foolish the number of times I have begun writing a post, lost the train of thoughts and dumped it into drafts. I love the idea of writing while listening to music. I start with finding the right song for my mood to build up the whole environment (Hindi has a very apt term for it - samaa bandhana. English pales in comparison). Anyway, so one starts with finding the right song for the right mood and hopes to publish a blog-post one is happy with...but things somehow run down-hill after the whole youtubing thing.

Here's what happens with me:
  • Create a playlist of similar mood songs on Youtube - say - Romantic
  • Forget that one song from that really insignificant movie starring Salman Khan & that actress from the South.
  • Try recollecting her name for 26 odd seconds. Ditch.
  • Google for 'Salman Khan + Actress from South' to come up with some ridiculous search results.
  • A lil' more head scratching....Ahan!! Her name in the movie was Maggie! (Talk about some food for thought!)
  • Google for 'Salman + Maggie' - Love it is! All hail IMDb.
  • Oh btw, check out this review at the bottom of the page here.
  • Haan, so where was I? Yes, "Saathiya...yeh tune kya kiya"
  • Buzz on GTalk - ofcourse its an old friend and I am not the one to go invisible after being buzzed, no sire. So one replies, patiently..using very little words just to give the right indication that one might be caught up in something important at the moment or when all fails 'brb' to the rescue.
  • Wouldn't it be better to just change the status message to 'Busy' for a while. But no sire no, we are not the ones to simply put up a plain, boring status message are we? We are the creative class (or so we think) so it has to be a creatively borrowed 3rd line of that ghazal one once heard and is not very sure of the meaning. But what if someone pings to ask the meaning and catches one unawares! Imagine the horror! So we google for the meaning and then put up a status msg something like this:
    Kuch to mere pindar-e-mohabbat ka bharam rakh
    Tu bhi to kabhi mujhko manane ke liye aa...Ranjish hi sahi....
  • Almost 11.5 mins since I last checked FB updates :|
  • Yayness! He liked my status msg...need a wittier come-back. Google. (Yes, lame.)
  • Hey, new video posted by him..must be something cool...let me check it out!
  • Superb video! Like. Comment. Share.
  • Hayyee. Relationship status update by Rohan & Pri? kab? kyu? kaise? and most imp. ab kiske saath? ;) (Yes, we are like that only)
  • So, where was I? Video..FB...imdb...google...youtube...blogspot!
And so, in this brilliant manner a perfect blogging mood get wasted by yours truly's utter stupidity and one sinks further down the depression of not blogging enough. Does this happen to you? any foolproof solution?

P.S: While I was writing this blog, the following conversation ensued with a friend.

Ashok: abbe
rutuja: hi
Ashok: give me suggestions
rutuja: for?
Ashok: things to do
i got absolutely no work in office today :|
rutuja: haha
i m blogging..abt how i get distracted while blogging
and end up not blogging :P
Ashok: lol
i am guessing you would mention me in the credits section :P
rutuja: brb :D

@ Ashok - There you go...you got a mention on my blog! I used my first 'brb-to-the-rescue' weapon on you and holly mighty did it work!! I am extremely pleased with myself (or as they say in Queen's Land - I am mighty chuffed right now!) for almost having completed this piddly blogpost which may not mean much to the world but is a no small feat for this girl.

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Heart-broken

Its official! Google devta is officially miffed at me :'(

First the randomness of gmail - no not in a metaphorical way.
Pings I never received, mails that came in hours later - and no, its not bad internet speed.

Then the blogger.com started playing truant...with the template designer being down for last two days. How is a girl supposed to 'get back' to her blogging? Especially after being told by an ardent follower that the existing template is hideous? Oh, and dont you point finger at me for the font size here. I tried.

I may have worked for Yahoo but I love you, Google. There. I said it.

And I did not cheat on you with this guy here. He was just a minor distraction - nothing more than a rebound relationship. You, on the other hand, are the one forever. The one who stays back even when the party is over. No, not the caterer asking for money. You know what I mean.

Sigh. Just come back.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Of gyri and sulci...

So I read this article today and couldn't help but wonder if life does come easy for a blessed few? While the rest of us toil hard to face our share of hits and misses?
Picture this: A poster boy for shtudness aced through his school life cracking all the Maths & Physics Olympiads on his way. He could name all the moons of Jupiter and recite the period table in a single breathe. Ok, may be he sucked at Social Sciences but then he had real brains, which did not require cramming of useless data like the year of Battle of Plassey or the gory details of Third Battle of Panipat.

And of course he had dreams. Big Dreams. Astrophysicist or Nuclear Scientist. Stanford, MIT and Carnegie meant something to him even at that tender age of 17. He went on to crack the
IIT Jee with a single digit AIR. Yes, the digit mattered. A LOT. Not to undermine his hard-work, he burnt midnight oil too..may be even went through short-lived phases of self-doubt and insecurities. But in the end that didn't matter coz he did make it Comp Science at IIT-B. Mom and dad couldn't be more happier and proud. He was the stuff that makes relatives hope their kids would turn into.

Fours years of
IIT was a breeze or may be not. But as the guy here says - I generally only study one day before the exam; it is a habit with all IIT engineers. He studied for a day..may be even went through the ordeal of giving a whole of TWO mock-cats and viola! IIM A was pounding at his door.

No, I am not jealous.
Ok, I am. Will this guy never get out of his Chronic Over-achiever Syndrome? Will reality never bite him? Where is struggle and that much talked about failure? Obviously he has managed to side-step this stepping stone to success and probably hopped, skipped and jumped on to the latter directly! Where is that depression after 12th? That phase of pain and helplessness to see mock-cat scores dipping and wondering if one will ever make it?

I do realize that such blessed men and women are quite a rarity. But where is the law of averages? Offers from
McKenzies of the world probably awaits His Highness on the Day Zero of placements while the meeker folks throw furlong glances singing 'sabse peeche hum khade' to the companies on campus.

This world is such a cruel place. The geek shall and do rule the world. Replace the brains with beauty and the same if utilized efficiently can be an excellent cutting edge tool for success. One cant help wonder if the working definition of all men are equal is "Well, Not really".

Yes, I feel pathetic for myself at this point of time. The fact that I know quite a few guys like this does not help the cause. No fights between
CTC and EMIs? These guys are so missing the fun! :| Sarcasm doesn't quite help alleviate this. But what the hell!

Sigh. I guess I am done hating people and the world in general, for the day.
If only one had enough
gyri and sulci - the gray matter that matters!

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

My very first...

haiku.

Have been wanting write haikus for a really really long time now. But like most other good things in life, I simply kept postponing the writing part and consequently regretting it. The vicious circle can be quite unfailingly endless and takes some serious effort in shaking off that inertia. But lo and behold, one does overcome the said inertia provided with just the right amount of time and that perfect mood.

So here it is... 

Dodging eyes
just a hint of guilt...
Strangers again.

P.S: Have been reading 'A web content strategist's bible' recently and if you landed here curious by the title name...I think the book is wonderful ;)  

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

25 under 25

So my 25th birthday is around 100 days away (103 to be precise) and hence I thought of coming up with a short-term bucket-list of sorts. A list of things I wish to do before my 25th birthday. As a friend pointed out that if I haven't done something for last 24.75 years there is little that I can achieve in these hundred days. But being the eternal optimist that I am, combined with a chronic list-maker, here goes the list I wish to strike off before 9th of January 2011.

Disclaimer: This is not an original idea...there are many such lists doing rounds currently. Ofcourse, these guys just thought of it a lil' before I did. Also considering the tight schedules of the Sherpas during this time of the year, Climbing the Mt. Everest has been kept off the list.

So without much ado, here's presenting THE LIST (drum-rolls)
  1. Learn to bake cakes ...no, a chocolate cake with melted chocolate icing and choco-chips.
  2. Learn to drive car.
  3. Oh. That reminds me - Learn to ride bicycle!! (the one without side-wheels)
  4. Get completely sloshed at least once, say the darn-est things ever and create 'funny, drunken, half-remembered' memories to tell the grand-kids.
  5. Start investing. Activate the bloody online banking option!!!
  6. Start paying off my Student's Loan.
  7. Get in the best shape ever.
  8. GOA. With. Friends.
  9. Lunch at one of the South Bombay Irani Cafes (Berry Pulav, Chicken Salli Boti and Patrani Macchi. Burrp.)
  10. Get a new job.
  11. Grow a potted plant.
  12. Self-learn how to Photoshop well.
  13. Attend a book/poetry reading session.
  14. Join a book club.
  15. Brush up my French and practise it on unsuspecting souls.
  16. Cook dinner for friends.
  17. Read at least one significant works of Neruda.
  18. Start a non-personal blog and post regularly.
  19. Make a denim/cloth bag from online tutorials.
  20. .........
  21. .........
  22. .........
  23. .........
  24. .........
  25. ..........
It is now way past my bed-time and I have scratched enough brains to come up with this list of 19 'Things To Do'. I think I am growing old 'coz I seriously cant think of anymore but 25 it must be!! :(

Dear Readers, this is where I would ask you to suggest something cool/do-able/fun/not-tried-before things that I can possibly complete in next 100 days. Do send me your suggestions in the comments. I shall update this list with the name of person who suggested. :)

Thanks in advance!
Au revoir :)